Hmmm ?

Well here I am sitting behind the computer. It's not my computer, it's my brother's. But when he's at school I like to take advantages of his elektronical equipments sometimes. When you don't know, you don't bother right ?

All the young adolescents are going to school including my friends. And I ? I've never felt so useless in my entire life before. I'm not going to college and I stopped working since four weeks. Since I have so much leisure time, I start reading books again. Went to the library last week and borrowed four books. I bought a book 3 weeks ago. A thick one with sixhundred pages but I haven't even read ten pages yet after putting it away.

Alright I'm talking full of shit now, try to be serious. I got two options.
Wheter I'm doing jobhunting or I'm going to travel. I prefer the last one, but
I'm kind of ranned out of money so that means that I need to work abroad. Well that's cool
but how do I find a job in a foreign country ? I mean it's not that hard. I'm a intelligent, hard working, kind, polite, ambitious woman so it's not hard to find a job. It's never been hard for me to find a job actually. Another thing, where do I have to stay .. in a rented houseflat/room with other students/employers ?
Immediately I have to think about dirty sinks, bathrooms, smelly toilets and you know what i mean. But hey no stressin now, I'm going to orientate myself this week about my plans for the next 5 months. One thing for sure; I'm going back to school again after the summer break. Still i;m not quite sure about the new study i'm going to choose.

But if i'm going to travel. Where am I going ? United states or Australia sounds very nice. Hmmmm .. my mind is a mess right now .. can't think clear .. fucking need to orientate and quick.

fail fail fail XD XD